i thought i took everything into consideration when i decided to put my kids names on this blog. what i didn't think about was when the kids are older, they could be online, find this blog and read about details i might not have wanted them to know, espeically not tucker. as if he needs to go back and read about how hard this or that was for me with him here, especially after everything else he's been through. i started this blog hoping i could be open and honest about my feelings during this process. there are so many blogs out there and it seems like they leave out the hard parts, or they hint that things are rough but don't elaborate, leaving you guessing. ugh....there is so much i want to share, but i can't. what i can tell you is that things have been going a little easier with tucker being here than i thought. he is very good to put away his dishes, clean up, etc. there are some other things and some attachment and bonding issues that we had anticipated with his age. i'm sure it happens at all ages, but pre-teens in general are not as receptive to affection like little kids are. besides that, i'm not always the best at giving it out. that is definitely something i need to work on!
anyway, right now i'm trying to decide if i should just abandon this blog and start a new one where i leave out some of the specifics like names and picutres so that i can reallly tell it like it is and not leave out the hard parts. something to think about!
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